I CRIED OUT LOUD

I cried out loud to You God
I think it's a third big cry I've ever had after my mom's dead and after something I forgot

I cried out loud for my life
I cried out loud for realizing the bad things I've done
I cried out loud for hurting evrybody out there
I cried out loud for all things I feel unfair to me


I just want to have a simple life just like others
I just want to have a "real" one, not like this
I just want to have one, only for me, really mine
Feeling jealousy listening to a story about yours/his/hers/theirs
Feeling jealousy looking and listening to someone else's happiness

I cried out loud for my life
I cried out loud realizing that everyone I love will leave me, and I'm all alone
I cried out loud begging You, kneeling to You,
Plese don't leave me God..
Don't leave me
I know I pray much too much
because I always leave You and just kneel and come to You when I need You


Just a simple question
why do I have to get all of these?
Why do I have to put this feeling to the wrong one?
Why don't you ask me to stop when I'm doing many mistakes?

I Just want You to give me the right one, the real one..
I Just want a simple and happy life like others

Sometimes I feel tired, feel exhausted with all of these things..
When can I just take a little nap, lying under a shadow tree with the right one?
I cried out loud to You
At least I feel little bit better, and for sure believing You won't leave me alone,
Thank God